how do you console someone who lost an important person, when you know where he is and will forever be?

how do you share tears with someone with so much sorrow in her eyes?

how do you give her that hug to say it's ok it's alright, when it's not?

how can you be strong and not break down, when you see how hard she is trying to pretend that it's ok, it's just a normality of life?

how can you keep your heart whole when you see the heart of the one you love torn into pieces?

how can your heart not break when you see her?

how can your heart not break when you think of him?


my mother lost her brother to a lung cancer relapse last night


woke up this morning to an empty house, which isnt unusual(since it's the holidays), except this time the house seemed to reek of a loneliness never before felt.

the quiet of the morning broken by the ruckus created by a quarreling malay family (friends?) downstairs, that even the police had to be called in.